The Cosmic Dancer

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I went on a shamanic journey with the drum. My intention was to meet a spiritual guide, but my shamanic journey led me to what I needed to see and experience.

I started the journey on a frozen lake near my house. I looked out, and I could see a few ice houses and some frozen fishing holes. I was wearing my purple coat, black snow pants, hat and mittens. I walked towards a chosen fishing hole. As I walked towards the hole, my clothes started to transform. My outdoor clothes changed into a long, purple gown with a hood. It also had a train – like a wedding dress. As I got closer to the fishing hole, my blonde hair turned to black and my skin to dark brown. I found the hole, broke the layer of ice with my bare fist, and I jumped in with no fear.

I swam in the icy water; sinking with until I found the latch at the bottom of the lake. I opened the latch with ease. I entered the universal space. I floated down and down. I loved being a black woman. My skin was smooth, and I felt more beautiful than ever.

I floated down until I saw a hologram of Nelson Mandela. He was playing the Djembe drum. He sat with the drum between his legs. He played and watched me.

I started to dance with the drum beat. My long dress turned into a skirt with fringes. I twirled around and around until I saw a galaxy form around my waist and skirt. I could see the planets and the stars. I continued to twirl around and around.

I received a message: All human life began from an African woman. She is the first woman. She is the most beautiful human being. She is the cosmic dancer.

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I continued to dance until I heard the “call back” of the drum. I stopped dancing, lifted upwards through the universal space, and back to the door with the latch. I opened the latch and swam to the open hole in the ice. I lifted myself out of the hole and started to walk back home. As I walked back home, my clothes transformed into my outerwear, and I was back to myself. The journey ended.

Oh cosmic dancer…

woman made of night…

you spin creation to your delight…

the drum beat of your heart…

the blood of your life…

you twirl and swirl with pleasure.

Oh cosmic dancer…

you call all sisters and brothers…

to listen to the drum beat of the heart…

cherish the blood of life…

dance with the woman made of night.

 

Namaste, world.

 

The Guest House – by Rumi

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This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.

By Rumi – a Sufi Poet – 1207 – Turkey

The Search for the “God Particle” Truth

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Three nights ago I watched the documentary, “Particle Fever.” The movie was about the Higgs Boson or “God Particle.” The Higgs Boson’s discovery was at CERN’s Large Hadron Collider (LHC) in 2012. LHC is the world’s most powerful particle accelerator/particle smasher in Geneva, Switzerland. CERN claims that they discovered the Higgs Boson, and I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, I agree that they found valuable information. On the other hand, I still insist that they need to provide more proof.

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The Higgs particle is the missing link in the Standard Model of particle physics. It is the glue that holds together the particles. Without the Higgs Boson, the universe would have no physical matter – only energy.

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My main questions are: Is the universe symmetrical/creative or chaotic/destructive? Is there order in the universe? The answer, according to the movie, is that the universe is both. It is the creator and destroyer. And there is order in the universe.

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Nataraja, is a depiction of the Hindu God Shiva as the cosmic dancer who performs his divine dance to destroy a weary universe and make preparations for the God Brahma to start the process of creation. This statue sits outside of  CERN.

 

One physicist, in the movie said, “The universe must care about humans. It would be so easy to destroy us and our planet.” The universe wants us to exist. We have symmetry and order. But for how long?

I think the physicists at CERN has discovered something unexplainable. The researchers and physicists are still trying to figure it out. They have years of data to go through. I think humans will understand more about the universe in the future.

I am interested in quantum mechanics. Quantum mechanics is a branch of physics tells us how atoms work. The principles of quantum mechanics state that particles change or collapse when observed. I wonder if observing the particle collision at CERN changed the outcome. Unobserved quantum phenomena are different from observed ones. The question then is: Do we have mass in the universe or just particles (energy)? Maybe the physicists at CERN did not discover the “God Particle” after all.

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Namaste, world.

 

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The Silver Wolf

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“If you can think for a moment of the outer world and the inner world as being the physical and the spiritual, both equally real and important, then you can begin to open to both simultaneously.”  – Barbara H. Davis

A week ago I had a dream of riding on the back of a silver wolf. The wolf was larger than most wolves. I held onto his nape as we rode through the forest. We were running in darkness, and I could not see the trees. I remember holding on tight to his silver fur – everything else was a blur.

I asked myself, “Why did I dream of riding a wolf?” I was going to look up wolf mythology, but I decided to interpret the dream myself.

I remember the feelings. There was an urgency as we rode – like something was chasing us. I remember feelings of kinship with the wolf – like we were old friends. I trusted the wolf and I had no fear while I was riding him.

The wolf symbolizes strength, protection, and transformation. The wolf can empower others. When I rode the wolf, we became a team. In my dream, it was natural to ride a wolf.

Riding into the unknown is how I felt as I rode on the back of the wolf. I was not apprehensive. I was trusting. Riding the wolf is like life. I need to trust the journey. I may not know where I am going but I hold on for dear life.

I believe the wolf the came into my subconscious mind to remind me of my connection to the wolf. I can become like the wolf. I connect to the land and also to the sky.

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For each creature, there seems to be a mundane life – but this is where I make the mistake. There is a mystical side to every living thing. As a human being, my body connects to the earth and my mind connects to the sky. The God essence resides in every living creature.

I had another vision of the silver wolf during a meditation. The wolf and I were walking in the woods – side by side. I felt companionship with the wolf. I felt like the wolf cared about me.

In this world of indifference, it is important to care for people. When you care about someone it shows real love from the heart. Everyone on the earth, can find the wolf as an example of loyalty, companionship, and a caring heart.

Oh Silver Wolf,

let me ride your true nature.

We ride into the light of love.

You care for me in ways I have unknown.

Your loyalty is eternal.

Walking side by side,

you are the shadow I have earned.

– GG

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Namaste, world.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Being Anonymous

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I exist, and I do not exist. I am anonymous. Knowing that I am a transient being helps me to see that I am a visitor on this planet. Most human beings on this earth do not even know that I exist! And this is okay with me. Being anonymous creates freedom in my mind and spirit. There is nothing to attach to in this life.

What happens when there is no attachment? There is expansion – like the universe. There are so many possibilities in life.

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Being anonymous helps me to live the way I think is right. I can live an authentic life and strive for goodness. I am responsible for myself. And when this life is complete, I will move on to the next journey.

Being anonymous creates a whole new reality. I am less worried about what people think about me. And the truth is that most of the time they do not think about me – they think about themselves. People live in their mini-worlds.

Being anonymous helps me to be egoless. When I am egoless, I am expansive. I have no attachment to acknowledgement, self-importance, or pride. When I am anonymous, I become the observer. I am no longer the “actor” in life. The observer accepts things as they are.

I exist and I do not exist.

I am but I am not.

I am here nor I am there.

But I am anonymous.

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Namaste, world.

Happy New Year!

 

 

 

 

 

Facing Loss With Equanimity

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My mom tells me that people who cry have big hearts. When we have a loss, the feelings swell up in our hearts, and we cry. Losing a loved is so challenging. Every human being will face loss. My question is: How can we face loss with equanimity? Equanimity means to face a difficult situation with mental calmness and composure. There are different kinds of loss but in this article, I will discuss the loss of a loved one.

We say “hello” to the people and animals in our life, get to know them, and create memories. And then we need to say “good-bye.” It’s an endless cycle of birth and death – like the seasons. This planet is our school. We learn, over time, to have more grace and equanimity in our lives.

One way to create equanimity is to see the world in a different way, have a different perspective. When we understand the nature of impermanence, we know that nothing can last forever. We must instill hope and peace in our hearts to carry on.

I lost a beloved dog a few days ago. It was my brother’s dog, but I took care of it for almost a year. I tried to face this situation with equanimity, but my emotions took over. My definition of equanimity goes beyond having mental calmness. My definition includes having spiritual awareness, mindfulness, and understanding of loss.

Life is so tragic, but we can create equanimity by remembering how much we love our loved ones. Love is timeless and can cross dimensions on an energetic level. The love in our hearts will reach our loved ones.

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I would like to share a simple heart meditation. I  learned this technique in graduate school. It’s from the HeartMath Institute (www.heartmath.org). You can do this meditation with your eyes open or closed. Also, you can do this meditation anywhere and anyplace. There are only three steps:

Step 1: Bring your awareness to your heart. Place your hand on your chest to feel your heart center. Be aware of the feelings in your heart.

Step 2: Take three deep breaths. As you breathe, feel the air pass by your heart center on each inhalation and exhalation.

Step 3: Think of a special place or person or animal that brings you a lot of joy. Bring that moment into your mind’s eye. Play it in your mind like a movie. Feel the emotions of the moment. Feel the joy and love in your heart.

This simple meditation can help you to connect with your heart and your emotions. I hope this meditation lifted your spirits and brought you calmness and joy.

Here are some equanimity key points, by Rick Hanson, Ph.D., “Buddha’s Brain: The practical neuroscience of happiness, love, and wisdom:”

  • Equanimity means not reacting to your reactions, whatever they are.
  • Equanimity creates a buffer around the feeling tones of experiences so that you do not react to them with craving. Equanimity is like a circuit breaker that blocks the normal sequence in the mind that moves from feeling tone to craving to clinging to suffering.
  • Equanimity is not coldness, indifference, or apathy. You are present in the world but not upset by it. The spaciousness of equanimity is a great support for compassion, kindness, and joy at the happiness of others.
  • In daily life and meditation, deepen your equanimity by becoming increasingly mindful of the feeling tones of experience and increasingly disenchanted with them. They come and they go, and they’re not worth chasing or resisting.

Namaste, world.

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The Friendly Afterlife

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I have some good news to share: The afterlife is friendly. A week ago, I spent some time with an elderly hospice patient. As she lay in her hospital bed, she dozed in and out of sleep; transitioning to her new afterlife. As a witness, I stayed with her, without talking or moving. I watched her; as if I was waiting for something. Then it happened. She opened her eyes and stared up towards the ceiling of her bedroom. Her eyes stared at one thing. Then she closed her eyes. A few seconds later, she opened her eyes again and looked at the same spot. Then she closed her eyes. The third time she opened her eyes, looked up at the same place, and smiled. It was the most peaceful and child-like smile I have ever seen. After she had smiled, she continued to look up towards the ceiling, and then she waved her hand as if to say “Hi.”

After this experience, I have come to the conclusion that the afterlife is friendly. My hospice patient has no fear. She is at peace as the veil between her current life, and her afterlife becomes more transparent. Soon she will leave her body and be on a new journey. The human body that she has will never exist again.

As I sat in a wooden chair next to her hospital bed, I glanced over at her black and white wedding picture that stood on her desk. She was a beautiful young woman. She had a heart-shaped face and smooth skin. Her husband wore a navy uniform and slick-back hair. After looking at her wedding picture, I looked back at the old woman with white hair and tried to imagine her young again. As I stared at her, I noticed that she was still very charming. She had the prettiest grayish-blue eyes that are haunting – but in a good way.

I became my hospice patient’s volunteer only two months ago. At my first visit, I realized that my patient was close to death and not talking as much. Therefore, I do not know her that well as a person.

The aide in the hospice house said my hospice patient was always so polite and thankful when she was able to talk. She always said, “Thank you, dear” to all the staff. Her elegance and grace are still with her even as she is dying. I learned in my hospice training that people die the way they have lived.

I do not know who my hospice patient saw as she looked up at the ceiling. I have heard many stories of people, who are close to death, seeing relatives or guiding spirits. I am honored to have experienced this spiritual connection as I sat with my hospice patient. I know in my heart that dying is a friendly and peaceful experience.

I see myself in my hospice patient. I know that this, too, will someday be my reality. Sometimes, in a warped sense of time and reflection, she is me. And when I reflect on this, I have no fear.

Namaste, world.

Anais-Nin

A New Worldview of Health

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“Health is a state of balance in which your life is defined by purpose, freedom, growth, and joy.” — Christiane Northrup

Balance is vital to health. When my balance is off, I can become ill. For example, if I feel a cold coming on, I have two choices: I can rest my body or keep pushing myself. I think it is important to listen to my body. Johnson (2005) encourages “people to listen to the messages of their flesh, to embrace their breathing patterns, to follow their styles of moving, and to pay attention to the insights that emerge within the movement itself” (p. 114). There are messages sent to the body every second. It is a choice to listen to the messages or not.

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My mother always tells me that if I do not have my health, I have nothing. Health is a gift (illness can be a gift too – see the next paragraph). Adams (2011) states, “Health is obviously so much more than a disease-free interlude. To be healthy is to have a body toned to its maximum performance potential, a clear mind exploding with wonder and curiosity, and a spirit happy and at peace with the world” (p. 190). This quote from Adams aims for perfection, but health is more like a roller coaster. It is impossible to stay in one state of health for a whole lifetime. Health will ebb and flow. The nature of the human being is to experience impermanence. Every person will experience illness at some point in his or her lifetime. Again, these experiences are impermanent. You cannot stay sick forever.

Illness

I am a little afraid of getting sick. About eleven years ago I was swimming in the ocean and a huge wave crashed my head down to the ocean floor – like getting hit in the head with a baseball bat. That following evening I became very nauseous and I started to vomit. I went to urgent care the next day, was diagnosed with a awful case of vertigo, and was given medicine. I could not stand on my own two feet, for even a few seconds, without the room spinning around and around.

I was not ill in the sense of getting a virus or a disease. However, a blow to my head caused me to become very ill. And what scares me the most: something, like an accident, can cause illness. It is the unpredictability of life. However, through the years, I have learned to trust the universe.

Vertigo has made me understand the difference between health and illness. It took about seven days for me to recover fully from vertigo. I understand my body a lot better now, and I know what I need to do if I feel vertigo symptoms coming on. I am prone to getting vertigo because of the head injury. I have to be careful not to hit my head, and I have to keep my ears from getting plugged when I have a sinus infection.

This vertigo experience has shown me great respect for the mystery of life, and I have a lot more patience. I have gratitude every day. I love my life!

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Illness can be a great teacher. If I did not get vertigo, I might have taken my life and health for granted. Now I see my health as being very precious. Dossey (2011) adds, “Although the illness varied, the message was often the same: The disease led to an increase in wisdom and understanding and held lessons that paradoxically made life better” (p. 143).

Wellness

Meditation is very crucial to cultivate wellness. My Buddhist teacher ends every meditation session with this saying: May all living beings be well, happy, skillful, and peaceful. When I am well, I feel lightness in my physical body, a clear mind, and an abundance of energy. When I am happy, I feel joy searing through my heart. When I am skillful, I have a purpose in my life. When I am peaceful, I feel no fear.

Meditation brings my attention back to my inner world. I gain awareness of my whole self. When I meditate, I focus on my breath and let the thoughts come and go without attachment. If I start to think too much, I bring my attention back to my breath. Venerable Ajahn Chah (1992) beautifully adds, “Getting lost in some train of thought won’t lead you to the truth, it’s not wisdom” (p.48). Wisdom is higher consciousness and self-knowledge. Wisdom is seeing the true nature of all things. Meditation fosters understanding.

The New Role of the Healer

I am so thankful for the integral theory and the new role of the healer. According to Ken Wilber (2005), “An integrally informed medical practice changes the practitioners first; they can then decide which of the treatments – conventional, alternative, complementary, and/or holistic – they wish to utilize, individually and collectively when practicing medicine with integrity” (p. xxxi). Several years ago I was in a very stressful job, and I started to feel sick. I had cycles of panic attacks, and I had a touch of vertigo. I put the integral theory into practice, without knowing it at the time. I saw my family physician for medication, had an acupuncturist balance my meridians, and I went to a massage therapist to reduce my stress. I was back to feeling balanced in a couple of weeks after seeking treatment.

Wilber writes a lot about the “wholeness” of the healer or practitioner. The transformation of the practitioner is essential. And, according to Wilber (2005), that “integral medicine goes one step further: it treats the illness, the person, and the physician” (p. xix). The caregiver is a big part of wellness. I so am thankful for the integral theory and the new role of the healer because it is change the world needs so desperately.

The New Role of the Client/Patient

I experienced the empowering new role of the patient. When I was pregnant with my second child, I developed high blood pressure at the end of my pregnancy. My doctor insisted that I get admitted to the hospital immediately (that night) and begin Pitocin to start my labor. Pitocin did not work very well for me during my first pregnancy, so I was against it. I told my doctor, “No. I am not going to the hospital.” For first time, I told a doctor “no.” I explained to my doctor that I wanted to get acupuncture treatments to start my labor. And that is what I did. I went on a Saturday morning for an acupuncture treatment and then again on Monday morning. I went into labor on Monday evening. I trusted myself. And back then, about fifteen years ago, I was practicing self-advocacy. I took responsibility for my health and the health of my unborn child. Hunter Adams (2011) states, “Health results from an active participation that only the self can give. The health professional’s role then shifts from that of a mechanic fixing the breakdowns to that of a gardener nurturing growth” (p.190). It was scary telling my doctor “no.” I stood up to a strong authority figure in our society. I felt empowered when I took my health into my hands.

Paradigm Shift

In the old paradigm, the patient gave all the control of his or her body to the physician. Dr. Northrup (2003) experienced this old model in her practice. She said that she asked a woman to tell her what was going on with her body and the women replies, “You tell me. You’re the doctor” (p. 431). Patients in the old paradigm believed that getting sick was just bad luck and that they did not have any control over the situation. In the old paradigm, the doctor-patient relationship is similar to a parent-child relationship. Dacher (2005) adds, “The science and particularly the medicine associated with this viewpoint have taught us to seek the remedies for our problems outside of ourselves, to distrust our inherent healing capacities, and to look towards the professional as the singular authority on issues of health and healing” (p. 19).

The new paradigm shift to self-advocacy will become the norm. A team of professionals and the patient will work for the common good of the patient. The professional or practitioner may incorporate other healing modalities that are not traditionally within his or her modality. Healing and medicine will be inclusive.

Healer as a Social Activist

Health and wellness are not equal in all parts of the world. Socio-economic factors do affect health. People who live in poor communities suffer from greater ill health and shorter life expectancies than those who live in developed communities. Also, many individuals who live in poor communities do not have the best healthcare. Poverty creates a cycle of poor education, social exclusion, and mental/physical breakdown. Dr. Thompson (2012) offered this perspective:

“Our view of social healing assumes a relatedness between individual and collective wounding and healing. Unresolved historical wounds carried in the collective memory, and collective unconscious can, and do, trigger a complex array of conflicts. This transference from generation to generation of victim-perpetrator dynamics often result in violent confrontation, war, oppression, human rights abuses and terrorism.”

Every human being is a healer. As shown in the film, “Roots of Health,” regular people can get together to create change and facilitate healing in their community. The film started with depressing images and sad stories. But by the end of the movie, I understood that change can happen. Thompson (2012) concludes with this:

“We are on the edge of an evolutionary phase shift and that ultimately healing is about evolution. We can’t heal without evolving. Thus social healing finds its highest calling discerning the information coming through at the edges of the new worldview and translating that into language, maps and tools for healing the historic wounds that have held old worldviews in place.”

Conclusion

Awareness leads to transformation and a new worldview of health. Health is a state of balance but there many factors contributing to health and illness. Listening to the messages of our bodies is important. Awareness is the starting point for health and wellness. However, to go further and ignite transformation, we need to invite the new paradigm shift in the new role of the client and the new role of the healer. This new paradigm shift will heal our historic wounds and guide the new healer as a health activist to create new ways to heal the world.

Namaste, world.

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References

Adams, H. (2011). Foundations of complementary and alternative medicine. St. Louis Missouri: Elsevier, Churchill Livingstone

Chah, V. A. (1992). Living Dhamma. Thailand: The Sangha, Bung Wai Forest Monastery

Dacher, E., Johnson, D. & Wilber, K. (2005). Consciousness & healing: integral approaches to mind-body medicine. St.Louis, Missouri: Elsevier, Churchill Livingstone

Dossey, L. (2011). Foundations of complementary and alternative medicine. St. Louis Missouri: Elsevier, Churchill Livingstone

Northrup, C. (2003). Voices of integrative medicine: conversations and encounters. St. Louis Missouri: Elsevier, Churchill Livingstone

Thompson, J. & O’Dea, J. (2012). The social healing project. Retrieved from:  http://www.servicespace.org

The Meditation Challenge

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This past week I went on a 4-day silent meditation retreat. It was the hardest retreat I have ever been on. I was challenged on every level – mental, spiritual, physical, and emotional. After the first full day, I wanted to leave. My suitcase was packed and I was planning to leave early in the morning.

Then I stopped. I realized that I always run from things when the “going gets tough.” I decided to stay for the whole weekend. I had several friends at the retreat and I wanted to fulfill the commitment. I instilled in my mind a resolve and stayed.

This retreat was like a meditation boot camp. We were on a strict schedule; which wasn’t my plan going into the retreat. I was looking forward to some meditation and a lot of relaxation. Instead, I had to wake up every morning at 5:00 and be sitting on my meditation cushion at 5:30. The days repeated with the same schedule: chanting, group meditations, walking meditations, yoga class, and teachings of the Buddha. I led the yoga classes.

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This retreat reminded me of a sweat lodge experience I had about 18 years ago. I was invited to an Native American sweat lodge. It was an honor to have that experience. A good friend of mine had connections with a Native American tribe. Before the sweat, my friend educated me about the sweat lodge rituals. I had to prepare my body by fasting one day before the sweat. I also made tobacco prayer bags to hang in the sweat lodge. I remember creating the tiny bags and dedicating each one to my family members and friends. Before the sweat began, I gave the Native American elder a bag of tobacco as a gift.

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The sweat lodge experience and mediation retreat were similar because of the challenge. Each experience challenged my whole being. It was difficult to stay and not flee. In the sweat lodge experience, I had to connect with my breath – just like sitting in meditation. The thick, hot, moist air forced me to go inward and focus on my breath. Also, in each experience I had to overcome the obstacle of fear. In the sweat lodge, I feared dying because I could hardly breathe. I remember laying down in a fetal position and putting my face to dirt floor so I could breathe better. I prayed to God that I would survive. The Native American elder helped me to stay connected with my inner journey as she chanted with the drum. In the mediation retreat, I feared losing my mind or fainting from sitting too long. The second morning of the retreat I sat in a group meditation for about two hours. As I sat, tears rolled down my cheeks. I couldn’t help but cry. My hips and legs hurt, my mind was swimming, and I was grieving the loss of my dad (he has Alzheimer’s disease).

After wiping my tears, I acknowledged my emotions and refocused on my breath. After this moment, I felt better. I changed the position of my legs and I sat with clarity and focus. My body felt lighter and my mind tranquil. I had overcome one of my toughest challenges during the weekend.

I also survived the sweat lodge experience. Each of these experiences created a new me – I was reborn. The sweat lodge is round, wet, and warm like a mother’s womb. The large, round rocks that baked all day in the fire pit warmed the lodge. Water was poured onto the rocks and my body sweat like it was raining. The heat scorched my body and my heart beat along with the drum. I laid in a fetal position trusting God and the Universe. Several hours later, the flap lifted and fresh air rushed in. I stepped out of the sweat lodge wet and slimy like a newborn. The cool, fresh air refreshed my body, mind and spirit. I felt a sense of accomplishment and gratitude filled my heart.

I was reborn after the meditation retreat too. I am a different person because of the meditation challenge. This challenge created determination and resilience inside me. Now I must go forward and remember keep my light shining bright…because I am radiant and strong.

Namaste, world.

“Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final.”   — Rainer Maria Rilke

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The Divine Massage

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While I was in India in January 2015, I took the opportunity to get a one-hour, full body Ayurvedic massage. I am so glad that I took the time to get a massage in India. I spent two weeks in India learning about Ayurvedic medicine. I received a Ayurvedic massage in Rishikesh. This experience created a whole new level of understanding. I will never forget it.

I paid one thousand Rupees which equals to about $16.00 U.S. dollars. After I paid the money, I followed the therapist to a therapy room. The spacious room had a massage table, chair, stool, and a cabinet against a wall. The room was lit by two high windows and a floor space heater keep it warm. (It was cold in northern India!) The cream-colored room was spacious with no pictures on the walls or decorations. The massage table was a heavy, dark brown wooden table. It had deep, open grooves along the sides to collect the oil. A Shirodhara oil container hung at the end of the table. Shirodhara is a therapy that involves pouring hot medicinal oil over the forehead.

The Indian massage therapist looked to be in her late forties. She was short and sturdy with a medium build. She had brown beady eyes and a crooked smile. She wore her long black hair in a pony tail and she wore loose pants and a kurta (long shirt) with an apron. She spoke little English.

I undressed in front of the therapist. I undressed and folded my clothes and put them on the wooden chair. I felt vulnerable as a stood there naked from head to toe. The therapist wrapped a thin towel around my trunk and pointed to the wooden stool. The space heater was near the back of the stool. I sat on the stool while the therapist rubbed my scalp with warm oil. The oil was pungent and smelled like burnt cooking oil. The therapist continued to rub my head, neck, and shoulders.

In the U.S. we do not undress in front of the massage therapist. Americans are modest; especially Minnesotans. In India and in many other Asian countries, there is no modesty when you get a massage. Furthermore, there is no medical history intake form or waiver to sign.

After the upper body massage, the therapist helped me lay face up on the hard, wooden table. The heater near the end of the table was making my feet feel like they were marshmallows roasting on a fire. I moved my feet to the sides of the table indicating to the therapist to move the heater – which she did. A thin, hand-towel-size cloth draped over my trunk. The sides of my breasts peeked out from towel. I readjusted the towel but it was no use! I gave in exposure! The therapist massaged my whole body with lotion and warm oil. She started with a gentle face massage with lotion. Then she massaged my legs, inner legs, arms, stomach, and then my breasts with warm oil. This was the first time I ever had a breast massage. It felt awkward at first but then I just relaxed. I know it’s healthy to massage the breasts. Massaging the breasts moves the lymph and create healthy circulation.

When I turned onto my stomach, hot oil poured on my back. It felt wonderful! This was divine! The massage therapist climbed onto the table to use her weight to massage my back. I could feel and hear my back crack as she went from my neck to my hips and back up from my hips to my neck. She also poured hot oil in my butt crack!

After the massage, the therapist sat me on the table and used the towel to wipe off the extra oil. The massage was over. The therapist cleaned the table as I got dressed.

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This Ayurvedic massage was different from Western massage. I felt like it was an oil bath! I felt good and oily afterwards. According to Vasant Lad (popular Indian author and Ayurvedic doctor), during an Ayurvedic massage, “oil is applied to the entire body with a particular kind of massage that helps the toxins move toward the gastrointestinal tract. The massage also softens both the superficial and deep tissues, helping to relieve stress and to nourish the nervous system.”

Oiling is important in Ayurveda to calm the mind and nourish the body. It also improves circulation, prevents dehydration, strengthens the nerves, and creates an electrochemical balance in the body. Ayurveda massage uses large amounts of oil. According to Swami Sada Shiva Tirtha (American Swami and author), “As with all Ayurvedic abhyanga, the main emphasis is on feeding the skin rather than on massage techniques. Oil penetrates the skin, all the tissues are fed, and the toxins contained within the tissues are released.”

As a massage therapist, I took special mental notes during my Ayurvedic massage. The therapist used long strokes and compression – like a Swedish massage. After the massage, I realized that it’s the oil that made the Ayurvedic massage so special. The hot oil electrified my skin. There is an electrochemical connection with the hot oil and the skin. It’s divine!

Namaste, world.

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