Everything Happens for a Reason

I decided to cancel my trip to Thailand. It’s not safe to travel right now because of the Coronavirus. I plan to go next year in 2021.

I was ready to go to Thailand. It was a difficult decision to make. I canceled my trip 36 hours before my plane would take off. My husband suggested that I go to Florida to see my best friend. I agreed to go to Florida. My friend just got divorced, and she was feeling depressed.

Before I left for Florida, I called my friend and mentor, Sister Lucy (who is a Franciscan nun), to tell her about my change in plans. Sister Lucy told me that my friend in Florida needed me right now, and there’s a reason for everything.

I am here in Florida right now. I arrived on Monday. My best friend told me that it’s a miracle that I am here to be with her because she was feeling suicidal. She said that I saved her life.

I remember the minutes before I made my decision to not go to Thailand. I sat in meditation, and the message, “have a flexible mind” repeated several times.

Life can change in an instant. It’s easy to get attached to our plans. But sometimes we are meant to be somewhere else or do something different.

We need to trust that everything happens for a reason. We may not understand how the universe works, but we can learn to have a flexible mind and go with the flow.

Namaste, world.

Death’s Smile

I have worked as a hospice massage therapist for almost three years and I did not witness someone die. However, a few days ago, I witnessed my first death.

My patient, John, was in his eighties. He died from Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s disease. When I arrived at his apartment, his wife, children, and grandchildren where present. They were tearful as John neared death.

I am kind and supportive to the patient’s family, but I focus on my patient. Johns breathing was irregular with a slight pause between his breaths. I gave him a gentle massage on his hands. I’m also a Reiki energy worker, and I could feel happiness radiate from his heart.

After about 10 minutes, I moved to the foot of the hospital bed to hold John’s feet. After a few minutes, I saw him smile. I told his family members that he smiled, and the family gathered around him. Then he smiled two more times. I told his family that “I think it’s getting close.”

John stopped breathing. John’s wife held is face and spoke loving words to him. They knew each other since they were 14 years old.

After a minute, I thought he died, but then he started breathing again. John’s daughter looked at me with confusion. As he breathed, he started to turn purplish gray. John took a few more breaths and then he died. As I gently held his feet, I closed my eyes.

It was a peaceful death. I started to cry with the family. I felt so honored to be there. I silently said “thank you” to John.

John had a close family. It was beautiful how they supported John during his dying process. They loved him so much.

I remember the quote by Todd Burpo, “The one thing love requires is to let others know they are not alone.” We need to be there for each other. We are together in life and in death.

I am so grateful to be alive. I want to rejoice in my continued opportunity to live my life to the fullest.

Namaste, world.

“The Alchemist” Quotes

By Paulo Coelho
By Paulo Coelho

I just read The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho for the second time. I read it several years ago, so it was wonderful to read it again. I like the lessons in the book. They are good reminders. For my 2020 intention, I want to reconnect with my heart chakra, so reading The Alchemist was reaffirming my intention.

It’s easy to say connect with your heart, but where do you begin? One way to connect with your heart is to feel your heart on a physical level. Place your hand on your heart center, and feel your heart beating. Also, during meditation, you can feel your heart beating as you follow your breath.

This morning during my meditation, I focused on my heart beating. I could feel the gentle rhythm. Also, I felt a twinge of fear. It was interesting because I wasn’t expecting to feel fear. I realize now that my heart has a lot to tell me, and I fear the unknown. But I know to stay in the present moment and let the fear pass.

A few days ago, I wanted to feel my heart when I held my dog in my arms. I could feel my heart fill with joy as a smile spread across my face. My heart started to beat as if it was purring.

I have a trip coming up in a few weeks. I am going to Chiang Mai, Thailand, to participate in a 10-day advanced Thai Yoga Massage training. Last night I thought about my trip as I felt my heart. I could feel my heart beat faster, just thinking about my trip. I am a little nervous traveling alone and spending the last five days of the trip by myself. I reminded myself that I am not traveling right now and to stay in the present moment.

The heart is a sensitive organ. It connects with our mind, emotions, body, and energy. It is the center of our life.

Namaste, world.

Live Your Dream for 2020

For Christmas, I got my two sister-in-law’s new potholders that say, “Live Your Dream.” It is a reminder to think about what you want in life and then go for it.

To live your dream for 2020, here are some helpful suggestions:

  • Create a vision board to help you see your goals and dreams.
  • Remember thoughts are energy. What thoughts do you want to give energy to and keep living?
  • Set intentions in your heart and then act on them.
  • Be aware of the scarcity complex. You have enough and always will have enough.
  • In 2020, is there one thing that you can do to help other people or an organization?
  • Start a gratitude journal.
  • Read an inspirational book. Let a story change your life. Here are some books that I recommend:
    • The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho
    • Final Gifts, by Maggie Callanan and Patricia Kelley
    • Waking: A Memoir of Trauma and Transcendence, by Matthew Sanford
    • Let your Life Speak: Listening to the Voice of Vocation, by Parker J. Palmer
    • Two Old Women: An Alaska Legend of Betrayal, Courage and Survival, by Velma Wallis


Namaste, world.