The Cosmic Dancer

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I went on a shamanic journey with the drum. My intention was to meet a spiritual guide, but my shamanic journey led me to what I needed to see and experience.

I started the journey on a frozen lake near my house. I looked out, and I could see a few ice houses and some frozen fishing holes. I was wearing my purple coat, black snow pants, hat and mittens. I walked towards a chosen fishing hole. As I walked towards the hole, my clothes started to transform. My outdoor clothes changed into a long, purple gown with a hood. It also had a train – like a wedding dress. As I got closer to the fishing hole, my blonde hair turned to black and my skin to dark brown. I found the hole, broke the layer of ice with my bare fist, and I jumped in with no fear.

I swam in the icy water; sinking with until I found the latch at the bottom of the lake. I opened the latch with ease. I entered the universal space. I floated down and down. I loved being a black woman. My skin was smooth, and I felt more beautiful than ever.

I floated down until I saw a hologram of Nelson Mandela. He was playing the Djembe drum. He sat with the drum between his legs. He played and watched me.

I started to dance with the drum beat. My long dress turned into a skirt with fringes. I twirled around and around until I saw a galaxy form around my waist and skirt. I could see the planets and the stars. I continued to twirl around and around.

I received a message: All human life began from an African woman. She is the first woman. She is the most beautiful human being. She is the cosmic dancer.

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I continued to dance until I heard the “call back” of the drum. I stopped dancing, lifted upwards through the universal space, and back to the door with the latch. I opened the latch and swam to the open hole in the ice. I lifted myself out of the hole and started to walk back home. As I walked back home, my clothes transformed into my outerwear, and I was back to myself. The journey ended.

Oh cosmic dancer…

woman made of night…

you spin creation to your delight…

the drum beat of your heart…

the blood of your life…

you twirl and swirl with pleasure.

Oh cosmic dancer…

you call all sisters and brothers…

to listen to the drum beat of the heart…

cherish the blood of life…

dance with the woman made of night.


Namaste, world.


The Guest House – by Rumi


This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.

By Rumi – a Sufi Poet – 1207 – Turkey

The Search for the “God Particle” Truth


Three nights ago I watched the documentary, “Particle Fever.” The movie was about the Higgs Boson or “God Particle.” The Higgs Boson’s discovery was at CERN’s Large Hadron Collider (LHC) in 2012. LHC is the world’s most powerful particle accelerator/particle smasher in Geneva, Switzerland. CERN claims that they discovered the Higgs Boson, and I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, I agree that they found valuable information. On the other hand, I still insist that they need to provide more proof.


The Higgs particle is the missing link in the Standard Model of particle physics. It is the glue that holds together the particles. Without the Higgs Boson, the universe would have no physical matter – only energy.

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My main questions are: Is the universe symmetrical/creative or chaotic/destructive? Is there order in the universe? The answer, according to the movie, is that the universe is both. It is the creator and destroyer. And there is order in the universe.

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Nataraja, is a depiction of the Hindu God Shiva as the cosmic dancer who performs his divine dance to destroy a weary universe and make preparations for the God Brahma to start the process of creation. This statue sits outside of  CERN.


One physicist, in the movie said, “The universe must care about humans. It would be so easy to destroy us and our planet.” The universe wants us to exist. We have symmetry and order. But for how long?

I think the physicists at CERN has discovered something unexplainable. The researchers and physicists are still trying to figure it out. They have years of data to go through. I think humans will understand more about the universe in the future.

I am interested in quantum mechanics. Quantum mechanics is a branch of physics tells us how atoms work. The principles of quantum mechanics state that particles change or collapse when observed. I wonder if observing the particle collision at CERN changed the outcome. Unobserved quantum phenomena are different from observed ones. The question then is: Do we have mass in the universe or just particles (energy)? Maybe the physicists at CERN did not discover the “God Particle” after all.


Namaste, world.


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The Silver Wolf

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“If you can think for a moment of the outer world and the inner world as being the physical and the spiritual, both equally real and important, then you can begin to open to both simultaneously.”  – Barbara H. Davis

A week ago I had a dream of riding on the back of a silver wolf. The wolf was larger than most wolves. I held onto his nape as we rode through the forest. We were running in darkness, and I could not see the trees. I remember holding on tight to his silver fur – everything else was a blur.

I asked myself, “Why did I dream of riding a wolf?” I was going to look up wolf mythology, but I decided to interpret the dream myself.

I remember the feelings. There was an urgency as we rode – like something was chasing us. I remember feelings of kinship with the wolf – like we were old friends. I trusted the wolf and I had no fear while I was riding him.

The wolf symbolizes strength, protection, and transformation. The wolf can empower others. When I rode the wolf, we became a team. In my dream, it was natural to ride a wolf.

Riding into the unknown is how I felt as I rode on the back of the wolf. I was not apprehensive. I was trusting. Riding the wolf is like life. I need to trust the journey. I may not know where I am going but I hold on for dear life.

I believe the wolf the came into my subconscious mind to remind me of my connection to the wolf. I can become like the wolf. I connect to the land and also to the sky.


For each creature, there seems to be a mundane life – but this is where I make the mistake. There is a mystical side to every living thing. As a human being, my body connects to the earth and my mind connects to the sky. The God essence resides in every living creature.

I had another vision of the silver wolf during a meditation. The wolf and I were walking in the woods – side by side. I felt companionship with the wolf. I felt like the wolf cared about me.

In this world of indifference, it is important to care for people. When you care about someone it shows real love from the heart. Everyone on the earth, can find the wolf as an example of loyalty, companionship, and a caring heart.

Oh Silver Wolf,

let me ride your true nature.

We ride into the light of love.

You care for me in ways I have unknown.

Your loyalty is eternal.

Walking side by side,

you are the shadow I have earned.

– GG

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Namaste, world.