This morning, my friend and I went to St. Joseph Catholic Church near my house. I was raised in the Catholic faith, but now I consider myself a Catholic-Buddhist. I love blending the religious traditions of the East and West.
I enjoyed spending time in the church with its old German architecture from the early 1900s (see the photo above). As I sat in the pew, I looked up at a large painting of Jesus, Mother Mary, and St. Joseph in front of the chapel. With my eyes searching for balance, I was pleased to see the representation of yin and yang (feminine and masculine). In the middle of the painting is Jesus, the Son of God.
I meditate every morning. So, even in the church, I closed my eyes to connect with my energy and calm my thoughts. I prayed to God. After my prayer, I received a message. The message said, “It is only through humbleness that we can truly love.” When we are humble, we let go of everything (especially our ego). When we are humble, we are open to love.
Today’s reading, during Mass, was from the Corinthians:
Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do wrong. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-6
After the message, I saw myself floating on my back in the lake. Just like floating, I need to trust and let go. Just like water, I can be humble and supportive.
Why is it so hard to let go of everything? Death is the ultimate letting go. But why wait until death?
Ego is a form of attachment. It looks for justification. It is the opposite of letting go – it wants to hold on. My ego looks for recognition. According to the dictionary, recognition is the acknowledgment of something’s existence. I need to let go of being “someone.”
Through humbleness, we can love. When we love, there is no judgment. The heart is open like the sky, and when we see our reflection in the water, we see the expansiveness of our soul.